1.06.2011

Anxiety Stricken!

Let's just say that I had one of the worst panic attacks that I've had in a LOOONG time today at work.

This one seriously just came out of the middle of nowhere.

I was sitting at my desk, and I just started crying. I was hoping no one would come up to my desk and need anything because one thing I hate doing, is crying in front of people.

So here I am crying at my desk like my puppy dog died and wishing I could rip my own hair out.

The only thing I know to do is email my sister because she can relate and she is usually one of the only people who can even remotely calm me down a bit.

So, my fingers start flying at the keyboard.

Luckily, I had an appointment with my psychiatrist today anyway, and I let him know what happened and he replies with, "I guess we should do something about your anxiety, huh?"

Uhh, yeah that'd be nice considering I've been dealing with it for oh, I don't know going on 10 years or so and you doctors just keep switching me from anti-depressant to mood stabilizer to anti-depressant and so on, and nothing is seeming to work. So yes, let's do something!

I'm very thankful he's finally getting on top of this situation, but the medicine he gave me is making me feel zombie-ish. Yes, already. He had me take one while I was there at the office, and I am a little too calm.

I have too many OCD tendencies and things to do to be THIS calm.

Am I making sense?

We'll see though. I'm willing to try anything. At this point in my life, for as long as I've struggled with this, I won't say no to anything.

I'll be my doctor's guinea pig if he needs me to be in order to find something, anything that works!

My plan was to come and blog a nice, long post to help ease more anxiety, but I'm far too relaxed and tired to make this an interesting post.

On another note, I hope you guys had an awesome NYE, and I'll do a post about that this weekend. I got some great pictures that I'd love to share with you guys!

4 comments:

Amber said...

Aww, I'm sorry, that sounds like a very difficult situation. Hoping this new med works out well for you! Hugs!

Meg O. said...

Wow, so sorry about the anxiety attack!! I seriously have those moments every so often -- things build up and there's no other way to release it but cry! Glad that your dr. is helping you through this and I hope the new medicine levels out!

Nicole said...

Wow, that almost sounds like a child on Ritalin... Hope they/you get this figured out!!!

Mama Hen said...

I am so sorry you have to deal with anxiety! I feel so bad for you! I hope you can find a way to feel better. Thank you for your sweet comment my friend. Have a great night!

Mama Hen

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